Tough Decision

I'm faced with a hard decision. I went to the doctor today for my 38th week checkup.
I was a little apprehensive to go because the last three times I have been "checked" the doctors weren't able to tell because my uterus is soooo posterior. Brian asked me if I was excited before I went. I guess I should have had him come in the past and he would have known the answer to that (: . I was really interested to see if I had progressed at all, but I don't think excited was the right word.

First the doctor did the exam, and gratefully she is a six foot tall doctor that has long fingers (: .She apologized, but was finally able to find out. I am dilated to a two and 70% effaced. I was a little surprised that I was only at a 2, but also grateful I hadn't had the baby before 38 weeks.

She then proceeded to tell me the "problem". She asked me if I knew the difficulties that comes along with a baby who has her shoulder stuck coming out of the birth canal (like Ashtyn had last time). She explained that there is a chance that if this baby is close to Ashtyn's size, she could have the same problem. Then if that does happen, she could have a broken bone, nerve damage for the rest of her life in her arm, or worst of all, brain damage. She then asked me if I would like to consider a c-section. She said the chance that some problem would happen is unlikely, but she had to tell me the possibilities.

My first instinct was "no", I decided to just get induced a week early and hopefully she won't be too big by then. She said, "alright, just think about it and go home and talk to your husband about it". I walked away thinking everything will be fine if I'm induced. As I was preparing to leave, the assistant who schedules inductions came up to me and said that I am scheduled for next Friday. However, this is the last day for at least a week that the hospital will schedule inductions because they are remodeling the next week. If there are any emergencies that come up on Thursday or Friday, then they will push me back and I won't be able to be induced until after my due date. There is also a high probability that I will be pushed back.

Well, that is my problem. How do I choose between a probably unnecessary c-section, but also a chance that my baby could have lifetime problems? If I don't go on my own this next week, or the induction doesn't happen on Friday, then I will have to wait too long to have her and she could have problems. Ahh! This is where you need Revelation right? Bri and I talked it over and I think I will wait until Friday to see if I go on my own or if I can be induced. If it doesn't happen, I will probably ask to have a c-section.

I just hope we are making the right decision. It's so hard to know what the future holds or if I'm choosing something that could harm my baby for all her life.
I guess this is where you rely on the Lord...